On my way to my first stand up comedy class & I’ve been fill..

On my way to my first stand up comedy class & I’ve been filling out a questionnaire that the teacher asked us to fill out & I figured I might share my answers with y’all too! * 2 things that you love and WHY.  1. Donuts. I’ve loved them my whole life. It felt really special when my grandma would get me some for breakfast & it felt like I was getting away with something secret & fun cause my mom was always bitching about how my grandma let me eat complete shit when I was little, which was true & probably not good for my budding relationship with food, but they taste hella good nonetheless. 2. Performing. I’ve been putting in “shows” for my family since I can remember. Dancing, singing, telling jokes, telling very tall tales, etc. I love getting all the attention even though I’m shy, anxious & introverted af. So it really doesn’t make much sense. But I love being in front of & pleasing a crowd. The dopamine release is insanely addictive. & If you get me shwasted enough I will put you on a personal lip sync concert of the entire Back 2 Black album by Amy Winehouse. You’ll love it. * 2 things that irk you/make you mad/really annoy the heck out of you and WHY.  1. Flakes. People that say they are going to do something & then don’t. I used to be a huge flake because of my anxiety so although I can understand why people commit to things & then don’t come through, I still can’t stand by it. If I can change & be better about showing up, why can’t they? Yes this is super judgmental but you asked. 2. Working doing anything not fun. I do not ever want a 9-5 job or I’d probably unalive myself. I recently tried working a normie job & I almost lost my shit. It wasted my time & did not pay me nearly enough for the time it took away from my creative endeavors. If the job does not inspire me, fulfill me creatively OR just bring in a ton of money for the time spent at it, I just cannot do it. I’d rather just not exist or at least maybe just go on disability & move back in with my mom, to avoid bills. Which is completely possible for me to do with my brain stuff. But I’d rather have fun. * 2 of your favorite stand-up comedians. 1. Margaret Cho. Growing up me my mom loved watching her comedy specials & she made me want to be a stand up comic. She took like the trauma of growing up as a minority & made it into funny stories she could tell the world. I will say I really disliked when she slowly became super political, not that I disagree with any of the opinions she shares, I just feel people go to stand up comedy for an escape rather than a social justice lesson 2. Amy Schumer. I like her because she’s gross to be 💯. So am I. I wanna talk about things that are gross specifically for women because being a woman is absurd, to put it bluntly. * Anything specific you hope you get out of class I wanna start doing stand up! I’ve been wanting to since I was a little kid. I remember sitting in the floor & watching some stand up comedian with my mom & her friends. I was oblivious to what was going on other than recognizing that whoever the man on stage was, he was commanding the audience in front of him & the group of people surrounding me. And they were dying with laughter. I loved the idea of commanding that much attention & causing people to have that much fun. Then & all of a sudden I noticed a specific joke the guy was telling about and old woman & a hat & comparing it to her aged vagina, calling it old news or something. I barely knew what it meant but I repeated that joke for years & adults loved it. I loved making people laugh. From then on I always saw myself as a funny girl. I was kinda weird looking, chubby, buck toothed & not exceptionally good at school even though I tested super well, which is how I made it through school without being held back due to my usually poor grades. So making people laugh was just my thing. I’ve been dancing around doing an open mic night for a long time. I finally went to one & realized there is really nothing much to be scared of because most everyone there kinda sucks anyway. So I might as well suck right along with them & do a thing I’ve always wanted to do. 📸: @jennacitrus